praying for faith

my last patient tonight (also my last shift in emergency medicine) shared that in the midst of all the craziness in her life, she prays that her faith stays with her because that's all that she has. i echoed her prayer. i pray hard that my faith stays with me no matter what.

i found myself in bloomingdale, illinois last sunday. i got lost on the way to the chapel. it was my first time to attend worship service there so i was very unfamiliar with the area. i found myself standing outside of the chapel, the worship service was already in progress and all the doors were closed. i felt like crying. i can't remember missing any worship service since after college except for when i was hospitalized once. i started thinking whether it is a good idea to lock the doors. but i soon realized that in the grand scheme of things, it probably ensures that everyone comes in time for the worship service. i was torn between leaving or staying for the children's worship service. i had a shift from 4 p.m. to 1 a.m that day so i needed to get back to indy right away. i already traveled 3 1/2 hours to get there. i could not go home without even attending the children's worship service. so i stayed. and i am glad i did.

bloomingdale has a beautiful chapel. i was inspired by the children gathering together in worship. i can see the fruits of the discipline inside the church. it is a small price to pay. i always remind myself that everything needs to be done in a proper and orderly manner. if that means that i need to manage my time more wisely, so be it.

i will be heading to california later today after i get a few hours of zzzz. my first stop is the kansas city congregation. i hope that i get there on time. i'll post pictures here. :)

p.s. happy birthday, mommy ko! i'll call as soon as arrive in california..