Heart Jumping

If I plot out my blogwriting vs my emotions, they should be directly proportional to each other. So on days that I don't write, most likely I'm just lost in everyday routineness. Or it could also be that I'm trying my best to keep my emotions in check.

Whenever my heart jumps, my immediate thought is to write something about it. So instead of studying, I'm writing right now ;). Today, my schedule put me in the same hospital for the whole day. So I decided to eat at the hospital cafeteria. I saw one of my classmates who I have not seen for a while so we chitchat over lunch. Since I normally don't pay attention to my surroundings and she was telling me the romantic story of how she met his new boyfriend, I didn't notice him right away. So he was there in his black leather jacket smiling and waving at me. I smiled and waved back. A part of me wanted to get up and follow him so I can ask him how he is doing. I told her who he is and even though we only had him for one or two lectures, she too remembers thinking then that he is so dashing :). I also told her that I have confirmed in a roundabout way that he is not straight so I don't really understand why my heart jumps every time I see him. She just reassured me that sometimes you can't help but have some sort of attraction to the wrong person. I don't even think now that he's all that cute. But there is just this general niceness about him that I seem to respond to. As I was telling my friend that he makes my heart jump, placing my hand to my chest, he happened to walk by again! I just hope that he did not overhear my silliness :).

But anyways, I think I do want to be friends with him. Probably the only way that this heart will stop jumping is by spending more time with him. So I'll shoot him an email now and suggest that he invite me over to his house for dinner. Maybe his boyfriend will cook up something fabulous :).