four christmases

reese witherspoon: 5'2"
vince vaughn: 6'5"

we're definitely watching this movie ;).

p.s. i just saw this article where they said that ramps needed to be built, boxes for reese to stand on needed to be present and vince even had to go barefoot :).
reese and vince

grief

my patient who we had to send to the icu earlier this week came back to the wards last night for comfort care. by some oversight, she didn't come back to our team. last saturday, the last time we were on-call, i admitted her for shortness of breath. she had metastatic stage IV lung cancer. i meant to stop by today to say hello. but i didn't really know what to say. we're on-call again tonight. as i wrote my admission orders and notes for my 2 new patients, i heard wailing in the hallways. i had the sinking feeling it was for her. may she rest in peace...

P.S. So to escape the wailing in the 4th floor, I went back to our team room. Both computers there were in use so I headed to the 5th floor. The door was locked. So I went up one more flight to the 6th floor. A few minutes later, I saw my intern and resident go in one of the patient rooms. I heard more wailing. Another patient has died... The intern was crying too, the team who was taking care of that patient did not mention that he is dying.. One more patient is not doing so well. Yeah, it's one of those nights..

how was your day??

i don't think that i'm the type who would come home and talk about how my day went.
i think that i would like to separate my home life from my work life..
does anybody really want to know that one of my patients is dying?? would i want to go through crying as i tell the story and remember how her face looked as i left for the day? i don't think so..

$160 mistake

Lockefield resident: "Are you lost?"
Me: "No.. I thought I parked my car here."

You see, I now live within walking distance from campus. I'm renting a studio apartment on top of a detached garage owned by a faculty member in our school. Yep, my 10th apartment in 10 months. In case, anyone is counting ;). This residential street is beautifully lined by trees. When I moved last week, the lovely leaves were fiery orange. This week they have a lovely shade of red. Indeed, their colors can rival New England foliage. I've been meaning to walk to school since last week but I've been too lazy. I've been parking in a commercial parking clot close to school. But this week, I thought that I should try to park at my old apartment complex. I was never towed there and I didn't even have a sticker for 2 months.
But today, the inevitable happened. I got towed..

I could really be pissed but I'm choosing not to be. Today has been too good of a day for me to spoil. You know how vocabulary can sometimes influence how people perceive you. Today my medical vocabulary was just flowing. I didn't know where the words were coming from, but I thought I sounded pretty well today haha.

So I peacefully walked home. It was a lovely walk. I really should walk everyday. Maybe the dividend of my $160 mistake would be the savings I will get from not ever having a cardiac cath :). There is really peace in solitude... I wonder though if the peace is partly coming from the knowledge that at the end of your brief solitary walks, you know that there would be someone to join you in the rest of your journeys..

the lovely daughter

right now, my mom is giggling for me. she's tongue-tied for me.
it's too cute :). thanks for all the prayers, mommy ko!

me upon meeting Boris the rottweiler: what happened to his tail??
answer: ummm, they don't have tails..

rolling home

so, i'm back in indy. y'all know what that means.. ;).
this is an exciting day. i see some dimsum, race cars, canal walk, etc..

what to wear? what to wear? i think i'll put on the pink suit.